What is that they say? “If you dream it, they will come.” Well for me, they come … then I dream it.
I’ve come to notice that whenever I’m working on something and need either inspiration, help with a name or just general direction my family shows up in support. You’re reading this and probably saying well that’s nothing unusual. And I agree with you, it’s really not; however outside of my mom and son, the only other family who knows when I’m struggling and need help are deceased. So I often feel the presence of my grandmother, grandfather, aunt and dad. And when they come through … honey, they come through.
This past week. I’ve been struggling with sleep. From not sleeping at all to tossing and turning to waking up early as hell, my sleep rhythm has been all off. I didn’t know what was going on because I’m not anxious, this week, or nervous about anything. Last week when I was super anxious about hitting the submit button on something, I started smelling tobacco products around me. I didn’t think anything of it because it’s almost second nature now. My grandmother chewed tobacco and dipped snuff, so I knew that was her letting me know she’s here. But on Friday and Saturday there was this super strong aroma of cigarettes. And it was so strong that it was burning my nose. It was pretty consistent and potent for those two days. Then this morning at about 6a, I woke up with the name for my next exhibit. At that moment the smell of cigarette smoke went away. I realized that subconsciously I must have been a little stressed about it so my dad and/or aunt decided to pop in too.
I’m grateful that my family is ever present in my journey of life. I miss them dearly and if they can’t be here with me physically, I’d certainly much rather feel them spiritually, than not at all. And if they decide to help me out of a rut, that’s all the better. So thank you for everything you’re continuing to do and guiding me among this crazy road called life.
Do you ever experience moments or reminders that your loved ones are still here with you? Tell me about it!